One thing I have been doing regularly during this lockdown is adding my data to the Covid19 Symptom Tracker App. Each day I log in and the app politely asked me if I have had a Covid19 test, and then asked if I am feeling physically normal or if I am not feeling quite right.
Every day I have clicked ‘I am feeling physically normal’, pleased that I am supporting the effort to track and analyse the data about the spread of this virus in the hopes that soon (please, soon) some further advances in treatment and especially vaccine will be made.
Today I opened the app as usual. The choice was the same do I feel physically normal today or am I not feeling quite right.
Pause.
I am not feeling quite right.
I click that.
No, I do not have a temperature, no I do not have the shivers, no I do not have a fever, no I do not have a sore throat or a persistent cough.
There is a button that asks for other symptoms.
Pause.
My heart is broken. Can I write that?
Pause.
I click ‘I feel physically normal’.
This Little Light of Mine 
I love your writing Jo. I’ll text you and Hopefully we can chat sometime this week. I’ve been quite teary today. Feedback from a friend from childhood about a new YouTube channel post I forwarded her the link for was met with sarcasm and criticism. My heart is broken too in a way I guess. We are all fragile emotional creatures…sometimes our symptoms are on the inside before they become “dis-ease”. I started a nutrition plan that has helped me to build resilience and beat low mood and tension. I can let you know about it if you like. 💝🤗